Into the rabbit hole…

Or at least, I could be. Yes kids, don’t let this happen to you. See what sleep deprivation and stretching yourself too thin can do? You get a crappy immune system that surrenders at the slightest cold virus that comes along and stressed out so much anxiety attacks come back  when you thought you’d gotten rid of them.  I’m TA-ing right now, and am quite medicated. The professor is lecturing currently so I have time to play on my laptop. It’s my second (and thankfully last) TA class of the day. I didn’t have time to have any sort of decent breakfast, not that I usually do, and I’m in class overlooking their work. I can barely walk in a straight line – anyone else would think I’m hung over or still drunk from a previous night. I can’t focus. I’m dizzy. And this professor just keeps piling on the work. I sit down for a moment to catch my bearings and he urges me on to do some useless task. He doesn’t know how to utilize me efficiently as a teaching assistant, and right now, I just don’t want to bother. I want to go home and sleep, but I can’t. After this, I have to do work for tonight’s class, then work for an assignment due tomorrow. I have 4 labs to grade over the weekend, papers to write, projects to work on, and hw to do. There isn’t enough time in the day. I need to rest up first, but I can’t afford the time it’ll take. These are the bleak and dreary parts of school… can’t wait to be done. Soon. It’s all I keep telling myself. Get through all this crap. Look for the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m just so worn out right now.